[ged] I hate to hate my live

I see tears and anger,
I see laugh and love,
I see hate and hurt,
I see live.

A flash before my eyes,
What I felt I did not like.
Although I excpected this,
It still struck me in the heart.

I know this is unfair of me,
I know I shouldn't even bother.
But my mind and my heart,
They just don't agree.

You need to fall,
You need it to be hurt.
I know I cannot protect you,
Although it's just the thing I want to do.

But this lesson we have to learn ourselves,
There is realy nothing I can do.
I can only watch and try,
Not seeing that you float away.

It hurts letting you go,
Memories from past lives come by.
Things that where and will be,
Things that aren't just right now.

This chapter is now closed,
I have let you go.
Don't expect me to be there,
The rollercoaster of my heart is no longer running.

I am tired of this feeling,
Knowing that I am just alone.
Although I don't want it to be true,
I was not created for this goal.

I am here to point, click and shoot.
Connecting what I see,
Telling you what you should do,
I am here to give it all.

Please don't blame me if I go silent to you,
It's just something I need to do.
There is no logical way to explain what I feel,
That's why I don't have a solution at hand.

I can only wait and see,
See where our paths will end.
Although I have a clear vision about the goal,
I still hate the path that is ahead.

Take care my friend,
You'll need a warm heart.
I know it's not mine,
Because this time it's just too much to handle.